21^st August

12:39pm

As if it is afternoon already! I must be honest that I reckon today is going to be a difficult day. I’ve had my chocolate chip Special K bar for breakfast, but then I went and found some finely chopped chocolate in the cupboard and couldn’t resist having a teaspoon of it. I FAILED. Only joking, I’m not too bothered about it, and I know it won’t kill me, I’ll just have to skip my afternoon snack; no big deal. However, I’m going out for dinner AGAIN to Miller and Carter and also going to a party tonight. I will just have to choose something healthy at the restaurant, and not drink at the party. That’s no great sacrifice though as I am driving tonight anyway, so maybe it won’t be so difficult. Hopefully.

Just as I went to put my joggers and trainers on for my 30 minute walk it began hammering it down with rain. Fan-bloody-tastic. Not to mention that I already wasn’t feeling very motivated because Meewps says she won’t come with me, and neither will my dad. Plus, when I say I can hardly stand up from muscle ache, I mean it. I planned on doing my 30 minute walk, then Yoga For Dummies on YouTube, followed by my evening exercises (but doing them in the afternoon as by the time I get back from the party tonight I’ll be super-tired.) But now with the rain coming down I don’t know what to do. I know that yoga isn’t very high-intensity so really I should be doing a more strenuous 30 minute exercise than just going for a walk, but since I’ve done so well the past two days I thought I deserved a break . . . I’m just really reluctant to ease off on it, because if I do then I won’t be able to get back into it tomorrow. Arghh the dilemma!

Perhaps I could just do something simple like marching vigorously on the spot, or going up and down the stairs, it’s just not very exciting. Booo. I really do not need another reason not to exercise. I might just go out in the rain. I’ll get wet though. Obviously.

Anyway, I’d better decide what to do and get out and do it or else I’ll become a fat loser. ‘Become’ being the operative word. Haha, only joking.

Actually that reminds me. There has been a lot of controversy as to why I am doing this diet. People are saying ‘You don’t need a diet’, ‘You aren’t fat’ and ‘Diets are for fat people’ etc, and I want all those people to know that I kind of agree. I know that I don’t NEED a diet since I’m not clinically obese or anything. However, I WANT to diet because I don’t want to get fat, and I would like to be leaner. I’m using the Special K diet to kick-start this healthier way of living, get me used to not snacking and eating what’s good for me and force me into the habit of exercising. I know I’m not ‘fat’ although honestly, becoming fat is one of my biggest fears. I guess that’s because I grew up (and currently live in) a society which constantly plagues us with celebrity culture, shoves ‘healthy living’ down our throats, and uses scare tactics to discourage us from pigging out. Basically, all I want is to be ‘healthy’, and what with the Special K diet being what I would refer to as a ‘balanced diet’ which includes cereals, fruit, veg and the other major food groups in moderation, I would say that this is a diet for everyone, not just ‘fat’ people.

Now that I have cleared those bits up, I’m still looking at the rain coming down in sheets, and getting progressively more and more annoyed about my exercise plan for the day being sabotaged by she which we call ‘Mother Nature’. Bitch.